Music
Why is it that when you are sad or happy or pissed off we listen to music.
I love music i would defentaly get rid of my tv if i didn't have children. As long as i had music.
And people oh my god. i am really starting to hate people. i am thinking of just getting rid of my msn and my yahoo.
Fucking people damnit. what they think that their Cock is something special, that all girls want to see it. what that i haven't seen enough cock that the second they put it on cam i am going talk about how i want to suck it for them.
That all i want to do is flash my tits on webcam. Come on, When i say i don't want to cyber you fucking loser. it mean is i am not going to flash my tits and i don't want to watch you stroking your fucking millimeter peter.
I don't want to help you, i am not going to help you.
I have a bit more class then that.
Fuck it has gotten to the point now that i have more people on my block list then friends list.
I can tell with in the first 3 lines exactly where the conversation is going.
Oh and another thing, WTF!!!!!!!!!! if you are from algieria or Nigeria i am not going to fly there, or meet you, don't fucking tell me you love me after seing my pic. i don't like you and i never want to meet you
I am not going to marry you, send you money or give you a letter asking you to come to Canada.
Fuck people piss me off.
And another thing, Don't fucking make fun of me cuse i am FAT. don't you think i know that. I mean come on people it is really starting to get old now.
I know that i am. and you want to know something, I am fat cuse i want to be. that's right i love being a bbw. i love it. and the men in my life like it too.
Now just becuae your little fucking crack monkey of a girlfriend is skinny don't mean that all of us have to. you fucking ignorate bastard.
And i know i can't spell you think i don't live in a world of written word I can see it everyday and i know that i can't spell i can see that i don't.
And no i am not going to give you my phone number and adress so that i can help you and your family out even though you are rich and the governemt has frozen your assest.
Someone just popped up on my Yahoo with "A/S/L"
LOL do you know what my reply was Read my profile it will tell you.
LOL loser.
MMMMM let me think what else can i bitch about today.
another loser asking for asl, said the same thing,
and another one wow with in like 30 seconds 3 people popped up asking for it.
LOSERS.
Alright everyone have a good day.
Well i am back
And here to write another post.
LOL now that i am here i really don't have anything to say.
Oh today one of the 6 kids nocked over the can of pain onto the Brand freeken new blue carpet in the living room. black oil paint all over the carpet.
Everyone well the adults anyway are really pissed cuse we dont' know what kid did it so we have to suspect our own. and it is going to cost a lot to replace it. or patch it see what can be done.
curt and mark are going to Woss for a few to go mushroom piciking, they are in season now, yay.. so i will be missing them amber will be missing curt more you know considering it is her hubby and all and i will miss mark, we are just friends but oh my god can he ever make me laugh.
we went to the bar and he made me laugh so much, he put a bud lable on his forhead for the night and was telling people that he was on the patch. LOL i swear if i was drinking milk i would have been comming out of my nose.
I have been thinking alot of the friends that i don't hang with anymore and i sort of miss them, it is amazing how you just loose touch with people over the years even if you don't fight with them you just loose touch. now you sit and wonder what theya re up to. and wonder if they are missing you too.
maybe not i was too much a nerd for that
LOL just as newfy.
Nope
Nope just took a look no new pics to post maybe next time.
Weekend blues
After the high wears off.
Haveing a few drinks with some good friends can be one of the best times a person can have. but the next day. too hung to do anything productive but yet you must clean up from the night before.
My life.
durring the week i can't wait for the weekend to show. when the weekend gets here i can't wait for the back to the monday grind.
Wondering if it is like that with everyone.
Sitting here wondering why i don't update as much as i use to.
Wondering if my life sucks too much.
Nope it don't LOL just too busy i guess with the shit that is life.
Children will be going back to school soon and i am so happy about that
Deborha starting K. wondering how she is going to do.
Andrew getting excited as well going into grade 3.
Wondering,,,,,,,,,,,just wondering,
I wonder another thing, how long can someone go alone before they start to go crazy. lol not saying that i am alone.
MMMM wonder if i have any new pics i can put up... i will take a look and post if there are any there.
Sun Tan line
and lolly pops are what makes my day.
Getting redder then red.
Hotter then hot
Having the ocean too cold for me to go into (mostly cuse i am a big ass chicken)
Got burt really well the other day at the beach.
It is really cold even now. I guess the ocean really doesn't warm up like a lake or river does, does it.
Oh well still had lots of fun.
Damn i can't wait for school to start Deborha is really getting on my nerves.
Shawn said that he is accually going to be buying the school suplies this year. however he has been saying the same thing for the past four years now.
LOL andrew for kindergarten alone cost me $90 boy is he going to have a big shock when he gets the bill at the end.
School is free my ass.
So anyway Deborha is really getting on my nerves. she have to have me in looking distance at all times. I can't even go to the bathroom with out her crying "mom where are you" Damn it really starts to piss you off after a while. I mean she has been doing this for months now 24/7 for months i have to be around her.
Andrew is still haveing his little bed wetting problem, i wonder when he is going to stop. he is 8 now and still wets the bed everynight. I have taken him to specialsit and everything and they just can't tell me what is wrong, one day he will grow out of it they all tell me, well that is fine but what about now, what is he suppose to do, he has lost all belife in hiself that he will be able to stop it.
On the plus it has been beautiful weather out and this year i have a tan which is not normal for me it is nice not to have such white skin, however it is less then shocking having the black make up and clothes with tan skin, Oh well.
Everyone has to change.
Everone has to grow.
Another plus. I still don't feel my age or look it. i am 28 i know still young, but i am still getting id'd i think it is fucking funny.
All friends must go at some time
Axel and Cattie are leaving today or tomorrow. back to Montreal. First they will visit Tofino then they will be heading back east.
I feel bad for them this was their vacation. But all they did was work. So much has happened and they got a back picture of BC.
Last time Axel was here was for his Dad's funural.
I hope that the next time they come it will be a better time for them.
Now i am sitting here listening to sad songs.
Don't really know just thinking of someone.
Talking to some old friends.
Wishing a few things could be changed but we all know that we have to live with the conciqueces that we have put on ourselfs
wondering why i can't spell as good as i once could
Wondering what could have been.
Listening to Kelly Clarkson.
I know place laugh track here. but i like a few of her songs. they help me cry.
You know everyonce in a while you need a good cry
and planning a BBQ.
have a good Monday people.
fucking passwords
don't you hate it when you can't remember your password. now i can't get in and check it.
If anyone out there knows how to get your password from Shaw webmail let me know. but the thing is it is not my Shaw account it is my ex's so i don't know his password or his account number. i have tryed almost everything inorder to get into it.
So if anyone knows how to do it i would be forever greatfull.
ok
now that i have a little bit more time on my hands i can do a proper update.
i have moved again.
Ya i know just moved into the place that all the pics are of but after moving in i realized thati just didn't like it.
So i moved into a bigger place. I will be getting pics for ya'll to see but since me and tom arn't together anymore i don't have access to a cam expecially such a nice one. but i do have a scanner so i can just get some normal pics and post them all for you.
I am done decorateing deborha's room. She has the princess room theame thing. the white bed with the netting over it. the white shevles etc. Andrew has the Spiderman room thing going on. a red bunk bed. blue walls. spiderman everything.
my room isn't done yet. but it has dark blue walls white trim and a black netting for above my bed that my friends bought for me at a store called "Spencer" in naniamo.
My living room is comming along.
The carpet has got to go. My god who puts in green carpet.? oh well i won't be able to do it for another 6 months or so.
mark has been visiting alot lately. he is so much fun to have around. makes me laugh.
but that is it for now getting tired and it is hard to type i am on pain killers, my hips are fucked right up. hard to move in the morning i reach for the bottle of pills before my coffee and smokes and for anyone who knows me coffee and smokes are the first on my list.
Alright have a good one
update
i know it has been a while but now amber is almost settled in and she has the comptuer hooked up. so i can update more often. miss doing that.
